Inside My Head

nowhere is safe
I’ve heard it said
one place is safe—
inside my head

there, no one can touch
there, no one can hurt
there, I am a rock
solid, hard—a little girl cursed

half a century of walls
erected, plastered, pasted, glued
hold the pieces of me together
never to be moved

do not look for a door
for no opening will be found
ironclad, it shelters an innocent child
who built her safe place around

a damaged mind
a tormented heart
protected from the monsters
who gleefully tore her apart

no comfort for this little child
for no one can enter this castle deep
all alone, forever alone
she sits there yet and weeps

©2023 jai

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12 thoughts on “Inside My Head”

Jai this is such a sad poem but I know it is true for many.

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jai on January 7, 2023 at 6:53 pm said:

Unfortunately, yes. Thank you.

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I love it. Do these come easy for you, or do they take time? So heartbreakingly beautiful. 💀 🖤

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jai on January 27, 2023 at 7:11 pm said:

Thank you! ☺️
Most come fairly easily anymore, but it wasn’t always the case. The more I wrote, the easier it got.

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Really profound…In my head I hear Ani DiFranco reciting this.

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jai on March 8, 2023 at 10:34 pm said:

Well, for sure, she would sound better than I reciting it. 😁 Thank you, Stephen.

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- Cutoff Man on March 8, 2023 at 10:35 pm said:
  
  There’s no such thing. No person can say “your words” better than you
  
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- jai on March 8, 2023 at 10:41 pm said:
  
  You haven’t heard my voice…not girly at all, and a strong Southern accent. Not made for reciting poetry—or singing. But it is what it is, and I’m okay with it.
  
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- Cutoff Man on March 8, 2023 at 10:46 pm said:
  
  I tried to use a southern accent in a spoken word piece (Against The Wall) and “Whelp” didn’t turn out too well. I recorded it on the blvd and you can hear cars and shit in the background hahahaha.
  
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- jai on March 8, 2023 at 10:59 pm said:
  
  I popped over to Spotify and listened to “Against the Wall” again and couldn’t detect a Southern accent, good or bad. You talk too fast, gottta draaaaaaw out the words. 😁
  
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- Cutoff Man on March 8, 2023 at 11:04 pm said:
  
  I guess that’s why In the Wild West they would said “Draw” during a showdown. I was crossing the street and babbling into the phone I am not too fond of how it turned out…ah well
  
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- jai on March 8, 2023 at 11:29 pm said:
  
  I think it turned out just fine. Voice deep and sort of gravely…worked well with the subject matter.
  
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